Monday, August 30, 2010

My Faith

Years ago, I didn't know who Jesus was. I just lived my life as everyone else did. I was probably the age of 12. I was more interested in the Angels, i was so excited about them and how big they could grow up to be, according to the bible. I forgot the most important thing in my life. Jesus, I wasn't even thinking of the main reason we are living today.

It was through the blood of Jesus that our sins were wiped away. It was through his pain and his agony that we are forgiven. I didn't even think about Jesus, I was more excited about his Angels. So one day, when I was walking towards my house, I had the most overwhelming sensation that flowed throughout my body.

I knew then as I know now that Jesus is truly the one to be focusing our attention on. I was amazed at what I was thinking then. I wasn't even thinking Angels anymore, I was not even interested in them for one minute. I was truly amazed at how awesome Jesus was. It was if God was slapping me upside the head and saying HEY! From that moment on, I never turned my attention towards anyone or anything except Jesus.

I have went through so many troubles in my life, but each and everytime Jesus has been there for me. He has turned my life around, showed me things that I didn't even see before. He opened my eyes to a world that needed people who care.

He has made me stronger each and everyday. I am not afraid of the things that await me. I know that he is with me each and everyday, there is nothing for me to fear when he is near.

I don't just listen to christian music or talk to him, but I live my life according to him. Each and every minute, hour I think about him. I truly look at every little thing and see his hands in it.

If you say that there are not many like me, well don't even think it. Everyone has it, they just choose to ignore his presence. They don't want to see what God has to offer. They are too blind by the daily activities they are involved in. If they would just take a moment and really appreciate everything and open their eyes to his love, they would be a changed person from this moment on.

Faith comes in all forms yes, but it begins with us when we look his way and listen to what he has to say.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

The Bible

A very popular movie has just finished. A couple walks out of the theatre, they are so excited about the latest movie in a series of 4. They talk as they walk down the street. An older man starts to walk towards them carrying a Bible, just as he passes them he hears them talking about it.

He can see that they are very excited by what they have seen. The man thinks to himself, if they think that this movie was awesome, they have no idea what awesome is. He starts to pull out his Bible and says Hello to the young couple.

He begins to say that he has heard about what they were talking about, he introduced himself and told him he knows a book that has some of the most amazing stories in it. He goes on to say that they will leave their jaw dropping for more.

The young couple smiles and looks very excited, they ask him what book it is? They are anxious to know more. The man lifts up his Bible and says, this is the book. The Holy Bible. He then says, you see many people go through their life not knowing how powerful this book can truly be.

They think that the latest tv series, movie are what's exciting. He goes onto say that some of these stories, all true are going to leave them breathless. The young couple look at each other puzzled. They kind of doubt it as most people will do, they are so into their daily lives that they forget what is really in the Bible.

The older gentleman tells them that they don't have to read it, but he encourages them to take it home and start to see what it has in store for them. The young man smiles and takes the Bible and says he will start to read it. Actually in this mans mind he is think he'll just put it down and never read it.

A week goes by, a month goes by. The young man was walking through the park and saw this old man again. Before the old gentleman could say anything, the young man said Thank You. He said you were right about the stories. He couldn't believe what he was reading and that it was true. It didn't seem like it really happened. It seemed like a science fiction movie. He was truly changed and looked at life with a whole new meaning. He will never forget the kind gesture this old man did.

The Bible is a very interesting, intriguing book. There is nothing like it out there. Even I have been amazed at what I have read, and I need to read it more. I have only read a few stories here and there. I will say, that some of them have made me go WOW in my mind. How could it be true, but it is and it's the power of God displayed in its greatest form.

So pick up that Bible, read a few chapters, include it into your daily life, you will be a changed person, truly you will.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

The Spirit Within

We are tempted by what we see, it is overwhelming sometimes. We try to go about our lives and survive through temptation, however many of us fall. I myself have many times, only to get back up and try again to be a good honest person. I find myself overwhelmed by temptation every day. I do not give up, that's because my spirit within is very strong. I love Jesus with all my heart.

I know that I will be having surgery very soon, it's not something that I was expecting a few months ago. Now I am ready to go through the pain and the recovery. I know that God is leading me to a better place. I am not scared about this surgery. I know it's going to leave a scar and the pain will be tough to get through.

I know that Jesus will be with me. His spirit will lift me up and show me that every day will get easier. We can go through life thinking that nothing is possible, but just remember that everything through God is possible. As the saying going, we can do nothing apart from him. That is so true, when we try to go about our lives, we fall and fail miserably. Jesus is waiting there my friend, you have to take a moment to stop, listen to his message in whatever form it is.

It could be a song, it could be something that someone said to you that made you smile, he is everywhere in our lives. I know that so many of you just pass it by, but if you just believe and accept him into your lives, you will see the greatness he can do.

All I can say is don't give up. The door is there, don't walk past it, walk into it and accept him into your life.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Enduring The Pain

One day after work, a young man noticed something that he was not expecting. His lymphnodes were all swollen. He was in a little bit of pain in his upper chest. He thought maybe he pulled a muscle, he knew it wasn't a heart attack. The pain radiated all the way through to his back. What he noticed next started to alarm him. He started to notice significant swelling under his arm where the lymphnodes reside.

He saw the dr, they ordered a cat scan on him to make sure that everything was ok. The ct scan revealed two large masses, one under his arm and the other under his left chest. The doctors feared the worse, they were talking Lymphoma. As weeks passed, after a minor surgery to his lymphnodes he started to heal. As one problem started to go away, another started to rise. For sometime he has been always wanting to sleep, so tired and even starting to feel weak.

He was missing a lot of work, He was in so much pain the first few weeks it was really hard to even lift his arm. His worries started to increase as he could only think about one thing, cancer. He just lost a relative because of it, she had been battling cancer for a long time. It was sad to see her go, sometimes he asked himself why does God do this to us, why does he allow us to go through these kinds of situations. Of course no one will really know, maybe it's make us stronger, maybe it's to send a message to others, we can only guess.

Months passed, still missing work because of his constant taking naps, feeling so weak. What was wrong with him he asked himself often. Just a few months ago he was doing just fine, he was working with produce and lifting crates that were 50-75 lbs and it didn't bother him a bit. It's shocking how quickly something can come on.

His trips to the doctors was almost weekly, test after test and still no answer to what was causing all his problems. He asked God to allow them to do a biopsy, it's something he's been pushing the doctors to do since day one. He has worried about the worst, having cancer or something just as bad. What was it? He couldn't figure it out.

He had more tests done, another ct scan that still showed a mass under his chest. It was his Thymus gland which he has known about since day one. It had not changed, if anything it might have grown a little bit. He could only worry about heart disease as his family has a history of it. After a stress test and an ultrasound on his heart, everything seemed to be ok with his heart. He was thankful to the Lord for him being ok. However, it turned his attention to his Thymus once again. He visited his doctor as a follow up.

Finally, the dr decided to talk to a few cancer doctors who know the most about the Thymus. He would try and get a biopsy scheduled. After a few days, he called back. The doctor called him back and informed him that the general consensus is to have it removed, that is surgery. He should be scared after hearing that, but he knows all of his pain, all of his troubles will be in the past.

He is about to go through a serious surgery, something which he has not had before. He knows that the Lord will be with him every step of the way. It might be a long recovery, but he knows that anything the Lord gets us to, he will get us through it.

This story is not fiction, it is real and it is happening to me as I speak. In a few days the general surgeon who I will speak to will most likely tell me what is to be expected and more.

I have had a rought couple of months, I had to quit my job at Wal-Mart, nearly 9 years of working there. I couldn't go back, I was not feeling that great. Finding out I had Sleep Apnea as well helped, but it was after the fact. My personal leave was not approved and I had to make a big decision that I was not proud of. It was either go back or be terminated. I chose to quit.

I have endured the pain, I have survived everyday that has led up until now. I know that the future is going to be bright. I know that whatever I have to go through will strengthen me and make me a stronger and better person. God has done so much for me, even if I have to endure so much, I know he will make all things new.

God is truly amazing and I can't say that enough. He has strengthed my faith even more. I know that I am not through the worst yet, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Something I never thought would come true. God has a plan and he will execute it with good as the final result always.